RANDOM THOUGHTS.

I cant slp at this hour!! How?!! Guess I'd slept too much earlier in the day, sighz. He's still online. I knew. But I din bother to tag onto his nick. He msged. At the same time, listening to Tanya Chua's song. Got influenced by dearie Wee, damnz. The song kept ringing in my head for the whole day!! Wat a fucking nice song. Awwww~~~

The lyrics. I hate it. I hate the way the lyrics sets me thinking. The memories kept flashing across my mind. The melody. I fucking hate it too. I hate the way it brings me to tears. Went jogging earlier on. The song was still in my head. The sweat from my forehead. I cant really differentiate it whether its my tears or sweat dat flows along my cheeks.

The feelings was gone, for him. Somehow or rather, my mind was not in a clear state. I tried to sleep, yet I kept tossing ard. It was you. I knew it. The pain in my heart. Unbearable. Esp when the song kept repeating itself. It jux hurts.

I fucking hate it when songs reminds me of someone. Significance songs cant be played or sang in KTV. I knew wad songs cant be played or sang. Cuz' I'll recall the way how you sang it marvellously. It jux hurts.

The way you sang it. The way you closes ur eyes when you're totally into the song. The way you smiled at me. The way you melted my heart. Once againz, I've lost in this battle. I remembered the way you hold my hand, the way you lead me home, the way you show you care, the way you vanished in my mind. Completely, totally blank.

I felt the pain once againz. You will know it when the pain hurts. Why? Cuz of you. Yes, I knew it. Its' you. This might be a sin. A sin I rather suffered and bear, with all my heart and soul. But I know, its impossible. Maybe for now.

Each time I felt the emptiness in my heart, each time I realised how much you meant to me.


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