Bothered.
Typing out this entry in school library again. Class ended early, as usual. Not intending to go for dance lesson, throat was abit sore and I dont have the mood to dance. I duno when this happen. I just suddenly feel "sianz" of it. Maybe its' due to the people? The dance studio? The environment? I duno.
Qin's with me in the library now. She's waiting for her Cong to pick her up. She offered, on behalf of Cong, to give me a ride back home. Feeling so paiseh at times. Feels like I am an extra "lightbulb" sitting behind, hahar. But anyway, just wana say thanks. To Eve and her "Adam" as well. I always took the Starhub van together with them for work. Thanks Thanks. *why am I sounding so polite suddenly? hahar*
Anyway, need to rush home to change my clothes and wear my specs later. QiQi is inviting me to her pre-birthday celebration at Partyworld @ Clementi. Hope my throat dont disappoint me later.
I felt awkward talking to him these few days. Saw his MSN pic taken with a girl standing beside him. I asked, whether he has found a new girl. His answer was nope and he immediately changed to another pic. I asked again, why did he want to change to another pic? I was hoping he will reply saying, "cuz' I dun wan you to misunderstood mah."
But his reply was, " I can do 72 bian". Duhz! What kinda reply was that? Anyway, I din really bother at that moment. What I mind was who's that girl beside him? Since he denied, I accept his answer.
Feeling quite distant and lethargic with him at times. Hoping he can find a new gf soon, in that case, I wont be bothered by so many things. Another hand, I hope he can remain single forever, *hahar, feels so evil*. When he's single, we can still remain as very very close friends. But if he's attached, I dont think I would even wanna meet him out alone.
However, I hope I can find some other guy, but not him. Sounds contradicting right? Its' true. I can really sense that there's no fate for both of us. We can only be normal friends for the rest of our lives. He's not the one. He's just not. So, where's the one? Can I sense his belonging? If you were me, would you rather pick someone who lurves you more than you lurve him? Or someone who lurves you, but you dont even feel a thing for him? Sigh.
My throat is killing me. I am going to end here. Qin will be leaving any time now. Gonna pack and get ready.
Time: 4.22 PM.
Qin's with me in the library now. She's waiting for her Cong to pick her up. She offered, on behalf of Cong, to give me a ride back home. Feeling so paiseh at times. Feels like I am an extra "lightbulb" sitting behind, hahar. But anyway, just wana say thanks. To Eve and her "Adam" as well. I always took the Starhub van together with them for work. Thanks Thanks. *why am I sounding so polite suddenly? hahar*
Anyway, need to rush home to change my clothes and wear my specs later. QiQi is inviting me to her pre-birthday celebration at Partyworld @ Clementi. Hope my throat dont disappoint me later.
I felt awkward talking to him these few days. Saw his MSN pic taken with a girl standing beside him. I asked, whether he has found a new girl. His answer was nope and he immediately changed to another pic. I asked again, why did he want to change to another pic? I was hoping he will reply saying, "cuz' I dun wan you to misunderstood mah."
But his reply was, " I can do 72 bian". Duhz! What kinda reply was that? Anyway, I din really bother at that moment. What I mind was who's that girl beside him? Since he denied, I accept his answer.
Feeling quite distant and lethargic with him at times. Hoping he can find a new gf soon, in that case, I wont be bothered by so many things. Another hand, I hope he can remain single forever, *hahar, feels so evil*. When he's single, we can still remain as very very close friends. But if he's attached, I dont think I would even wanna meet him out alone.
However, I hope I can find some other guy, but not him. Sounds contradicting right? Its' true. I can really sense that there's no fate for both of us. We can only be normal friends for the rest of our lives. He's not the one. He's just not. So, where's the one? Can I sense his belonging? If you were me, would you rather pick someone who lurves you more than you lurve him? Or someone who lurves you, but you dont even feel a thing for him? Sigh.
My throat is killing me. I am going to end here. Qin will be leaving any time now. Gonna pack and get ready.
Time: 4.22 PM.
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