Weak.

What am I bothering about?? What have I been doing lately?? Why cant I just concentrate on my studies and focus more since my mock exams are just a few more weeks ahead??

I am weak. Fell sick again. The virus is getting more stronger and stronger each and everyday. I wasted 32 bucks this afternoon just to get some simple medication. I am broke. Just paid close to 2k of exams fee to RELC. My bills are arriving soon. Need to help mum pay for her starhub hp bill till March as I bought N7610 using her name. Sucks.

I am weak. I trusted people too easily. Now I am hurt, yet I can blame no one. "Good people deserves good deeds" are just rubbish. One guy died in the midst of accident when he was rushing down to help victims that suffered from the Tsunami crisis. What is life? Who repays who?

I am weak. I cant handle my feelings well. Till now, I really cant decide who's the one really treating me well wholeheartedly. Who are the ones I can really trust and tell him/her what I am actually feeling? He might seems kind to me, but who knows, he only treat you as a very normal friend?

I am weak. I hate the way you tell your friends about me. The way you present me infront of your friends, seems that I am already attached to you, which in actual fact, I am just a nothing to you.

I am weak. I am not a responsible person. I am not there, when people needed me to be. I knew nothing. I cant handle duties well. I am flicker-minded. I cant make instant decisions well. I am just a useless bum.

All I want, is just a simple life. Someone who will be there when I needed. Someone to listen to my woes and sorrow. Someone who pats my head and gives me a hug when I am down. Someone, who is the someone.......

Time: 5.12 PM.