The scar.
Finally I've the time to actually sit down and typing out this entry. Has been keeping myself damn busy for the past week, either attending school lessons, renting out lockers after class, meeting vendors on weekdays which I've to sacrifice my work day, helping out in my Welfare project on weekend and finding free days to work at a bloody far area, Joo Chiat Complex.
Many things had actually happened in just a short period of time. Regardless good or bad. The good times are definitely reserved by my SIM Gang. With them around, each and every of my days are being filled with joy and laughter. Another good thing was that I managed to get into the first round of audition for the hip hop dance category, *phew*. Luckily, I din really disgraced my dance instructor who has been imparting her skills to us for the past 3 years. Glad that I've actually made it to the first round, its okie if I dun make it to the final round because those who are in, are really the damn superb dancers. The way they groove and move to the music is damn awsome, cool.
Humans are selfish beings, especially asians. They will always do things that will only be an advantage to them. If they feel that they wont gain anything from it, they wont even give a damn or bother to help. Why must we always think of the gain or loss when we are doing something? Cant we do it on our own accord? There's so many charitable organisations in Singapore. Everyone is talking about voluntary work and donating money to charity. Is this really out of our own willingness or are we being forced to do so? Have you ever wonder why you are willing to help out in these organisations? To have a better reputation? To create a kind-hearted image? If you do so, does that mean that you are already having an intention in carrying out.
Humans need to be respected. But, what's the actual meaning of respect? In terms of hierarchy or purely friendship basis? Who makes the decision? Who listens to the instruction? All these are just mutually related. When you respect me, I will respect you as well.
Why cant they understand what we are doing are just a role to be played. All of us are just actors and actresses of a stage play. You play your part well, I play mine well, and that's it. Why do we have to be united together to form a so- called "union" to oppose the opposite party? I really dont understand why it has to be turned out in this way.
I understand, when you belongs to a collective group, you will tend to behave and think in a similar and collective way as the other members of your group. This is what I call, brainwashing. I wont deny that I was being brainwashed. To a certain extent, I even agreed and believed to what the others' said to me.
I usually wont voice out any discomfort views and manners regarding certain aspects because I dun wish others to be brainwashed by me. However, I realised that I am a highly-sensitive being. I can sense things fast. Thus, this leads me to highly-emotionised (hmm, got this word anot huh?) as well. My hunches can be quite accurate at times.
Things are getting from bad to worst when rumours and unhappiness are being spread around each individual groups. There's no ending to it, when we are continuing facing the same problem again and again. This problem will not be solved, i am sure. Because it has already left a deep scar in everyone's heart. This scar will fade off, sooner or later. But this scar will be there forever, externally or internally.
Time: 12.47 PM.
Many things had actually happened in just a short period of time. Regardless good or bad. The good times are definitely reserved by my SIM Gang. With them around, each and every of my days are being filled with joy and laughter. Another good thing was that I managed to get into the first round of audition for the hip hop dance category, *phew*. Luckily, I din really disgraced my dance instructor who has been imparting her skills to us for the past 3 years. Glad that I've actually made it to the first round, its okie if I dun make it to the final round because those who are in, are really the damn superb dancers. The way they groove and move to the music is damn awsome, cool.
Humans are selfish beings, especially asians. They will always do things that will only be an advantage to them. If they feel that they wont gain anything from it, they wont even give a damn or bother to help. Why must we always think of the gain or loss when we are doing something? Cant we do it on our own accord? There's so many charitable organisations in Singapore. Everyone is talking about voluntary work and donating money to charity. Is this really out of our own willingness or are we being forced to do so? Have you ever wonder why you are willing to help out in these organisations? To have a better reputation? To create a kind-hearted image? If you do so, does that mean that you are already having an intention in carrying out.
Humans need to be respected. But, what's the actual meaning of respect? In terms of hierarchy or purely friendship basis? Who makes the decision? Who listens to the instruction? All these are just mutually related. When you respect me, I will respect you as well.
Why cant they understand what we are doing are just a role to be played. All of us are just actors and actresses of a stage play. You play your part well, I play mine well, and that's it. Why do we have to be united together to form a so- called "union" to oppose the opposite party? I really dont understand why it has to be turned out in this way.
I understand, when you belongs to a collective group, you will tend to behave and think in a similar and collective way as the other members of your group. This is what I call, brainwashing. I wont deny that I was being brainwashed. To a certain extent, I even agreed and believed to what the others' said to me.
I usually wont voice out any discomfort views and manners regarding certain aspects because I dun wish others to be brainwashed by me. However, I realised that I am a highly-sensitive being. I can sense things fast. Thus, this leads me to highly-emotionised (hmm, got this word anot huh?) as well. My hunches can be quite accurate at times.
Things are getting from bad to worst when rumours and unhappiness are being spread around each individual groups. There's no ending to it, when we are continuing facing the same problem again and again. This problem will not be solved, i am sure. Because it has already left a deep scar in everyone's heart. This scar will fade off, sooner or later. But this scar will be there forever, externally or internally.
Time: 12.47 PM.
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